I never knew what I was born to do. I never woke up one day sure of what I wanted to be when I grew up. Most likely because everyone was pushing me to be what they wanted me to be. My dad pushing me to be an engineer. One of my cousins pushing me to be a singer and the other pushing me into sports. My mom lecturing me about a long-term, practical careers. I remember in grade school I loved art class. The only class I was looking forward to. I took art again my sophomore year of high school. I was then nudged in the direction of game art and animation. Fueled by my love for playing games I thought it a fantastic idea to make games for a living. I graduated and went off to college but after 2 semesters I learned it was impossible for me to finish. I was scared of being in debt like my mom.
So I came back home and my mom told me about an IT training program. I thought about a career working on computers but never learned on my own. The IT training program helped me get my Comptia A+ certification. And for a while, I was sure what I wanted to do. Then I realized that I'm not competitive enough to be in this field of work. I have to sell myself and my knowledge to potential employers. With a lot of practice, I can to it well but I'm not sure if I want that kind of life.
I want to experience life in a little cabin in the woods next to a waterfall in the mountains. I want to sell beautiful paintings and write bestselling novels on my typewriter. I want to master how to hunt and fish and farm my own food. I don't want to fret about how safe my food is to eat. I don't want to live in an apartment. Or live in a house that I'm paying for until my kids have kids. I don't want to drive through traffic every day and work for hours. Then come home and make dinner. I want to hike and take breathtaking photos from mountain tops and valleys. I want to experience raw nature and stargaze from my bed at night.
How do I get this life? Do I have to be rich and retire early? At 20 years old can I achieve this goal in 5-10 years? I think it's possible for me. I just need to get out of debt, find and buy land, and build my little cabin in the mountains next to a waterfall. It's hard work. I have to force myself to practice my art so I'm good enough to sell these paintings. And write every day so I can sell best-sellers. I have to go to work so I can get out of debt and save for my dream life. I have to remind myself not to get frustrated or stray off my path to happiness. And most of all I have to be determined.