I'm truly for about your loss. I wish it hadn't ended that way. I know you and your son are in an incredible amount of pain right now, but eventually, with time, things will get better. I've had my own experiences with suicides, and it's far from a fun one; it's miserable. Just remember to try and keep your chin up for your son, if not for anything else. He needs you just as much as you needed her. Stay together, stay strong.