There are many new habits I need to make to find happiness, one of them is that whenever I decide to talk to someone out of anything but necessity, I will ask for a least one contact method. It annoyed me tonight that I forgot to do that when I talked to the woman beside me. It's even worse when I've done so to a potential love interest, thinking that somehow we will meet again. Nope, the world doesn't work that way. I missed.. I don't know how chances that way. I generally prefer women, but how they are so passive, is something I do not love. I'm not naturally very assertive myself so it takes effort and will power to start a new assertive habit. That is, if I see someone I'm interested in even just a little bit, I should try to get her—or his in the rare case—contact information. I find myself annoyed wth how passive I am, but more importantly, I'm frustrated with how passive everyone else seems to be. I've never had anyone ask me out on a date. Part of my problem is that subconsciously I've had this desire for perfection and somehow view myself as a princess waiting for her prince. Yeah, no, hasn't happened in 30 years, so not likely to happen. Love Voxxe~
