Could I be a psychopath?
How come I am not a psychopath or serial killer, not a disturbed person or I have a multiple personality disorder (DID)?
How come I am not in a mental hospital and never been there? I am not keeping on trying to kill myself or at least hurting (harm) myself and have SH? So I have at least some control about my own life, my feelings? How come I have no amnesia and simply forget forever and start a new life somewhere else? How come I always have to act normal and every word I say is measured. Nobody ever said: she has a tough life don’t take her that seriously just let her be.
I have plenty of life experiences.
Plenty of experiences that would drive other people crazy or mad already a long time ago. I have a lot of reasons, very good reasons, to hate women, men and children. Plenty of reasons to go hunt for people who harmed me even more as anyone can imagine.
I am sure I am able to find all of them easily. No matter where on this planet they live or hide.
How come I am not taking advance of people or want revenge?
The list with names of those who did harm me, abused me on purpose, who tried to break me is long (and they are still laughing about me behind my back). I did not forget one of hem as time passed by and I never will. If it comes to that my memory will never fail on me.
I do not know why I never did defend myself.
Why I do not fight for my own rights, just for some one else’s. But I do believe I am changing. I am not the kind of person I always was. If I would have a gun I would simply shoot those who make my life miserable on purpose. The kind of people who think they are untouchable and do as they like. The bullies. The ones who add nothing to society besides pain and even get away with it. At the moment I am just too lazy to get myself a gun. Hopefully I never meet those people again. If so there is always the change I will “snap” after all. Since after all I am a broken person as well and there is no reason to be friendly or helpfull. So it might be I am lunatic after all.
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