Dear Zord,

I know you've probably never done this 'resolution' thingy before because you always hated putting yourself on deadlines and for the whole year, you would actually have to check back on what you've listed and see where else you're missing. As a disciplined INTJ, you hate missing deadlines and would usually strategize your plans thoroughly, be it for this resolution or for other things. That is what makes you organized and calm whenever something brash hits you. Though this little resolution and this self-reflecting letter would probably not be your FULL list of things you want to share to the Steemit community(for whatever reason, probably just to keep it as a memory), it's a good start to start realizing that sometimes, you need to get things done in life.

What happened in 2018?

People have many colours and would show the nicest ones first. I'm sure that one of the major, almost traumatic events that hit you was when you realized that it is indeed a VERY cruel world out there and that some people do dress themselves up in sheepskin. You've learned that there was a time when ALL ODDS came against you, words and rumours about your life were all twisted and turned just because people were jealous. I know that you were so afraid at that time that u went on knees calling out to God to intervene in this whole fiasco. True enough, His promises are never failing. When all else failed, God intervened and besides just learning to be careful of the wolves among the sheep, always remember that God is always for you and whoever harms you, harms the apple of His eye.

A hopeless romantic and someday someone would see that gem in you. You've had your fair share of falling in love and feeling the intimate affections for someone throughout this year. In fact, it has enveloped most of your life and time. Being in denial that it could never happen. Well, after all, that has happened, I think you know what you're actually looking for in 2019. It's these experiences that will help you perfect your visions in life. Like a foodie who sets out to find the best chicken rice and after many tries, knows what the best for his taste buds actually is. We both like food so I had to use that as a reference.

Doing what's best for yourself. I'm sure that people have shown you throughout this year that they've put themselves first many times. It will only affect you IF you had expectation from them and while they're at it, they will never realize what these expectations are. You have actually already applied this life principle several times in situations that needed it and I can see that it's working out pretty well but NEVER forget compassion while you're at it. This is what will separate you from many.

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Moving into 2019

You've been asked several times just today about what your 2019 resolutions are, which got you actually starting to think about it. You're not considered that young already, late 20s. It's when you start moving and taking ground and establishing your visions.

Your spiritual growth is vital. It encompasses your whole life and you have been nudged several times that it is time to move. Literally go out there to find a new church. Not that your current is bad but because it has already been months, even years that you have not had any proper spiritual food. It matters because it keeps you walking on the right track with God and you can lose everything else but not Him. Mark my words, you would rather lose the whole world than lose yourself.

Go to the gym you FAT MEATBALL! This deserves a kicking in your.... my own ass. It is as cliche as it sounds, but panting after walking a few flights of stairs isn't a good sign that you're fit and your belly looks hideous! At late 20s, it is time to actually feel good about your body and to be healthy. Less process food and more of your own cooking. I know you like cooking but you rarely have the time. Maybe swap the remaining time you have to hit the gym before you suddenly pass out just eating.

Also, it's about time you move into your new house. You have no money in your bank, which is sad but it's about time you save up for 2019 to get your housing renovations done. RM50k (12kusd) isn't a lot man. You just need to cut some unnecessary spendings on food. Yea, it takes most of your salary away, you know it, I know it, your instagram knows it. You're already one step ahead a lot of people who can't afford a house but letting it sit there empty is like not owning any house at all.

Lastly,

I foresee that 2019 is a 'getting out of your comfort zone' kind of year. Don't be afraid, pray. You have what it takes to overcome what is to come because you have God with you. His favor will shine upon you and to the people around you. Bless and be blessed. When God leads, you will find that spiritual wealth that you've been looking for in that particular church. You will meet many new friends and will meet many new experiences, good and bad. But all in all, 2019 will be a good year for you.