Hi, so nice to meet you. I thank you for sharing your vulnerability with us. Although, I see it as strength and courage. My boyfriend, Hive account@badseedalchemist, and I have also come from a dark road. We are now both on the other side, into the light. By the grace of God, each other and honestly, the Steemit platform, we have found inner growth, healing and a new zest for life. I believe the same is possible for you.. This is an amazing community, welcome aboard!