A few bad days, dreading starting another day. 😔

I have had no motivation over the last few days, the tiredness has been off the scale. I can cope with a lot of things but being tired, this isn't helped with having Fibromylagia as its a big part of the problem. Some people don't believe when I say I had to scream to get myself out of bed, I can't open my eyes my body is exhausted, I fight with trying to get up, its actually pretty scary. I was really bad today. We have had another bad night with Mika being up and down, its me that wakes up first or im awake before she starts to move but once I do fall asleep hubby says its like I'm dead, it's horrible and a frightening feeling trying to wake yourself up as its 3pm in the afternoon.

Hubby had to go shopping with his mum as I couldn't move, I lay in bed with the thought I have to get up and wash the fridge out before hubby gets back with the shopping, I did eventually do it but then cried for 10 minutes as I'm fed up to the back teeth of feeling so useless. I miss out on everything that's happening, I have to apologise all the time but really think thru don't believe me, as if I would pretend about being useless and no good to anyone.

THIS MADE ME GIGGLE

Hubby bought another addition for his Reef tank, when we went down yesterday morning to get ready to take my daughter to work he took a photo of his new friend, his new friend doesn't look very pleased. It looks like its flipping the bird at him.

I managed to clean the fridge out so felt a bit more useful, even though it took me 2 hours as have to keep sitting down until the pain in my knee and spine eases. Hubby was pleased as it was his job I had done, he had wanted to do it when he got in so pushed myself to help out a little. I even helped put the new shopping away but then had to flake out on my recliner and do some deep breathing.

I did have some good luck tonight which helped make me feel better. I played my usual game of Online Bingo and won £20 & A Christmas hamper, I was over the moon as I won one last year, it wasn't bad plus a voucher to buy the Christmas Meat. Im a Veggie so that's something for hubby to choose.

So the day ended better than it started, I'm back in bed now dreading tomorrow morning as it will be here we go again. If this life you are being paid back for what you did in a previous life then I must have been one evil bitch.

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