“Yeah. I did call. I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have, though. I called because I was missing you, but I’ve thought about it a lot and the pain in my heart that comes sometimes when I am missing you is okay when compared to the pain I’d expose myself to in opening my heart to you in anyway ..
Still, it’s not cool to reach out and then ignore you, so I’m sorry.
I hope all is well, of course”
“Moving back up to stowe rung up memories both good and bad . It’s been hard to not wonder what you’ve been up to and I’ve just been wanting to ask how you are, what you’ve been up to and whether or not we could give each other a hug. Happy Friday Mo”
“What I’m up to is in Paris..
It’s so beautiful.
Unfortunately, I think you are someone I may never be able to entirely separate my feelings from.. making things like hugging and seeing each other very painful when that’s all it will be. I’m really sorry that I feel that way. Maybe one day when I find another soulmate of mine that works better, it will be easier to separate my feelings for you.. idk, definitely don’t want to expose myself to excessive avoidable pain.”
xx monique