X’s and Y’s — this is what my BFFs and I use as a term for our exes. X’s – well that is self-explanatory. Y’s – it’s for “why” it ended…
The process of getting over an X is a grueling one. The endless days where you feel like you are slowly dying; the countless minutes passing by of not having him in your life ever again; the bottomless pit of darkness that you feel your soul is trapped in.
Every smile you give your friends hurt.
Every feel-good lines from friends and family doesn’t make sense.
And you feel that almost every other heartbreaking song being played on the radio is YOUR SONG.
And you are tired of crying, yet you cannot stop.
And you are tired of the pain, yet it seemed never ending.
And then of course you have to learn the art of letting go.
It is an art because it takes a lot of anyone's skill to genuinely let go of something that have been precious to us (a perfect example to this would be Gollum of Lord of the Rings - kidding).
We all know how it is when we lose something very special - we cry.
I think this is the child within us that is always there no matter how much we have grown. And it is all right to cry.
We have to remember that while nothing or no one can ever replace what we had before, I believe that something or someone better comes along.
It is like having a feather caught on the palm of your hand. One minute it is on you and the next thing you know it is out of sight. There is is dancing slowly away from you and no it never comes back and sometimes it happens too soon.
Pain and hurt comes in. It gets inside your every pore trying to occupy the most of your body and making you feel helpless. And you try to overcome the feeling.
You try to live a new life and forget everything that had happened.
And after weeks and months (yes sometimes even years) of suffering and pain, you have done it!
And you are proud of yourself that you did.
And you promised yourself never to feel that way again.
But promises are made to be broken and guess what?
You are falling for the trap! (Not again!)
You tried to save yourself by telling your heart to shut off, but it never listened to you anyway.
Now you feel this guy is so good to be true. Different from the others.
Just beware!
Here comes another heartache (Uh-oh!).
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