A Memoir
Prologue: quite slowly the understanding dawned on me. There is another reality in which I am realized. If I am living outside of the duality, and if I am a pilgrim on a journey, then a destination must exist as well. A glorious kingdom to which I am boldly pacing. Will I allow myself to believe in that existence or am I be lazy and a martyr and wallow in the mundane duality of the physical reality? I was standing at the gates of the unfamiliar territory and I had to make a choice.
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You are human beings.
Each and every one of you has unique life-circumstances which have brought you up to this point in time. You do not live in a vacuum and there is always a give-and-take feedback between you and the environment you inhabit.
The thoughts and feelings of a divorced woman who has two children are considerably different than the thoughts and feelings of a teenaged girl. The most minute change in our current life-surroundings, in what we experience and in what we wish and hope for ourselves, creates a totally dissimilar Self.
Therefore it is natural to assume that not all of us easily accept the existence of the Kingdom of love and the feasibility of real love, of the realization; you have doubts to some extent. Those, influence the unique love-life that you create for yourselves and in turn, determine how fast the realization will enter your life.
One thing is certain though - no matter who you are now, there was a time that each of you knew about your true reality. I use the term “knew” rather than “believed” because the knowledge is always accompanied by certainty. You all once knew that real love does exist just as you now know that the sun will rise above us tomorrow morning. During the years you have abandoned that definite knowing and passively replaced it with a worthless belief which in turn faded away. Nowadays either you do not believe at all in the reality beyond the physical or you deny and repress its existence.
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The process from certainty to forgetfulness has been taking place - consciously or not – in your early years. That explains the fact that you may not have a recollection of it. A little child, for instance, could deliberately choose for themselves to forget, soon after their birth, what they knew about the real reality in order to create for themselves the suitable life-circumstances for their expected development. Additionally, they could also preplan that they would remember True Love at a certain age and that memory would advance them further on their journey towards enlightenment.
A divorced woman who had two failing marriages and who probably believed in True Love enough to try it twice, may now tell herself: “True Love does not want me, I have no part in it. True Love is for other people. Not for me”.
Many of you can sympathize with such words and mood. It would be equally easy to sympathize with a solitary mature man who longs for an embrace from a loved one but unfortunately, wherever he looks, he faces despair, loneliness and, hopelessness. For many of you, real love has become an intangible concept that you see in movies. And when the issue touches your life, you sigh. That sigh exemplifies the fact that you have come to accept your sad situation and the hopeless circumstances that make True Love totally unreal in your personal life.
Some women (or men) who have lost hope to find their True Love choose to bring a child to the world by themselves, without a long-lasting relationship. They become single mothers (fathers) and face the accelerating burdens of financial support, emotional caring, and daily distress. THOSE same circumstances create extremely difficult life-situations that undermine the self-esteem of those parents and hence pull them further away from the knowingness of their genuine heritage. Such a mother may encourage herself by saying: “when my child grows up a little more I will find the time to think of myself”. Meanwhile, she kills any inconvenient thought about love and relationship. She will indeed continue to hope that one day her knight will appear on a white horse, and will carry her and her child in his arms to his kingdom, to manifest that great True Love she has been dreaming of. (An Important note: Not all single parents chose that out of disbelief in their ability to find love. I brought that only as an example of a phenomenon that occurs. Actually, many single parents are testifying how their children connected them to their inner knowing and enabled them to express more love. Incidentally, that scenario is not contradicting my point).
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However, sadly enough, when a potential Knight will surprisingly appear, that old doubt which has been nesting within her will elicit:
“TrueLove? For me?....No way!..."
”Just like that?... no way…"
"And why now?...no, it can’t be!… "
”What that man wants from me anyway…?.”
And there he goes. That man disappears, flees by that woman’s doubts and suspicions. She on her part uses that incident to reinforce her initial belief that love exists only in fairytales. Sadly enough she does not realize yet that that belief was the cause for the failing scenario in the first place.
If you think that such description is unreal, think again. Numerous people do not believe in the existence of True Love and for them, that kingdom is a fantasy no less than Peter Pan’s Never Neverland.
The truth remains consistent. The Kingdom of love is natural and real as any other reality you perceive with your senses. The fact that you are still not fully aware of that reality does not mean it is an illusion. Different rules apply in that reality and the determine the way to access it, how to remain in it and also, for those interested, how to leave it rather easily.
When we hear about a grand ceremony that is taking place somewhere in a gilded majestic castle we naturally assume that certain dress codes apply and specific behavior rules are expected to be followed. We know that if we want to enter that ceremony we better comply. We also know that once we are in, we must continue to behave appropriately or else be expelled. Every system has its peculiar and unique grand rules that govern and shape its existence.
The fact that the kingdom of love with its characters is more artificial to you and appears mostly in your thoughts and feelings does not mean it is a no-man land. Therefore, certain rules do apply to that kingdom with whom you will be familiarized in the next chapters.
