I have a boyfriend who grew up with me.his name is Shawn.i
always thought him as a friend, until last year, when we
went on a trip from a club.i found that i fell in love with him.
before that trip was over, i took a step and confess my love
for him, and soon we became a pair of lovers, but we loved
each other in a different ways,
i always concentrated on him only, but to his side there
were so many other girls, to me he was the only one, but for
him, i was just another girl.........
"Shawn, do you want to go watch a movie 😊 ?" i asked
"i can't 😶 "
"why? you need to study at home 😯?" i feel
disappointment grabbing my hand
"no i need to meet a friend "he said
"ummm....ok.... 😞" I said sadly
he was like that.he met girls in front of me, like it was
nothing, to him i was just his girlfriend. the word "love" only
came out of my mouth.
since i know him, i never heard from him say "i love you "
before.to us there weren't any anniversaries at all. he didn't
say anything from the first day...and continued till.;...100
days,,,,,,,200 days.....But everyday before we say goodbye......
he would hand me a doll everyday without fail, i don't know
why....
then one day.........
Me: um Shawn i....
Shawn: what?..don't drag just say.....
Me: i love you
Shawn: you...umm...just take this doll and go home.....
that was how he ignored my "three words" and handed me
the doll....then he disappeared like he was running
away....the dolls i received from him ,filled my room, one by
one.....there were many.
day on my 17th birthday..when i got up in the morning, i
pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in the room
waiting for his call,....but lunched passed.....dinner
passed,,,and soon the sky was dark...he still didn't call.
it was already tiring to look at the phone any more.then
around 2 am in the morning. he suddenly called me and
woke me from my sleep. he told me to come outside of my
house, still i felt joy and i ran out happily..
Me : Shawn..
Shawn: here take this ...
again he handed me a doll,,,,
ME : what is this?
Shawn: i didn't give this to you yesterday ,so i am giving you
now, i am going home now, bye.
Me: wait wait!...do you know what today is?
Shawn: today?.. huh!?
I felt so sad, i thought he would remember my birthday.then
he turned around and walked away like nothing had happen
. then i shouted.. "WAIT!!"
Shawn: do you have something to say?
Me: tell me!,,,tell me you love me..
Shawn:....huh??
Me: tell me...
I put my pathetic self behind and clung in to him.but he just
said a simple cold words and left.
"i don't want to say that .....i love someone so easily.... if you
are desperate to hear it then, find someone else... "
that was what he said,, then he ran off, my legs felt
numb...then i collapsed to the ground...he didn't want to say
it easily....how could he...i felt that ...maybe he is not the
right guy for me,,,
after that.,i stranded my self at home crying!just crying, he
didn't call me, although I was waiting!.
he just continued handing me dolls everyday outside my
house...
that's how those doll piled up my house every day.......
