Hello fellow steemians!!
We all believe in love and spent whole life looking for it.
Today i am sharing a story with you which might change your perception about love.
Hope you guys will enjoy it.
BELEIEFS OF THE LITTLE GIRL
As a young girl ‘Bella’ believed in Miracles, Santa Claus, Cinderella, Alice, Snow white, Rapunzel, Genie and every possible fairytale stories. At the time of Christmas she waited for the Santa to come to her house and keep a gift secretly at her place. Though it never happened but her belief was rock hard and it never broke. She knew she was special and one day her life would change. An angel from skies above would come to her and grant her the wish. She would day dream of becoming a superhero or seeing the unseen things. Her imaginary world was her happiness; she could imagine and dream about so many things that she ever wanted in life. She made and maintained her belief always by praying to lord. People around her used to tell to be good and do well, so she followed. She believed when everyone said that God listens to the honest and good heart, so she tried to be the one.
HER REAL HAPPINESS
It was a small family; she lived with her parents and sister. Living a simple life with her family was her happiness. Her mom and dad loved both the daughters and sister love was strong and deep like they had two bodies and one soul. They didn’t need much people or luxuries in life to be happy. Bella loved her family and was grateful to God for giving her a loving family. This was the first love she experienced in life with her mom, dad and sister. Her family was her true love.
WHEN SHE LOST HER LOVE & BELIEF
The love with her sister didn’t last long and she lost her at a very young age. When the news hit her, it took years to believe it. For months she kept on holding to her belief that ‘’Miracles do happen’’ and she believed nothing bad could happen to her because she was a special girl. She or anyone in her family never did anything wrong to anyone so it’s just not possible that they get punished in this manner. After all God punishes people who does harm to people and they didn’t belong to that group. Every day she prayed to God for some Miracle to happen and her love, her sister returns to them. As the time passed by, her belief begins trembling. She didn’t want to believe the old school stories and realized at last that she wasn’t that special as she thought she was.
''What a shame!
The girl who once believed in fairy tales and magic had to be struck by reality of life
And losing the beliefs she would always wonder ‘’what wrong she did to deserve this?''
HER COMFORTING LOVE
When she lost her dearly sweet sister love, she didn’t have any more faith left and was heartbroken thinking how unfortunate she was thinking that she is someone special. She wanted to cry loud and ask so many questions that ‘’Why it was her?’’ when all she did was being good to everyone. She came out of her grief cave and saw the faces of her parents and was taken aback in shock. They were drowning in sorrow and she thought it was only her who could make this pain go away. She can’t cry anymore and has to live and make everything bearable for them. There was no time to cry and SHE MUST LEARN TO START LOVING AGAIN WITH HER BROKEN HEART. When she gave all her love to her mom and dad, she forgot her pain. They still loved her but with fear, fear of losing her. When love got mixed with fear she had to remove the fear and show only love. All three of them were scared of losing each other so they wanted to be close and chained each other in the love that was insecure and fearful. Even if it was a love with fear of losing each other, it comforted her. It was the love that drives her life and she never wanted to lose it.
FINDING THE TRUE LOVE
As a grown up girl, she wanted to find the true love for herself like Cinderella, snow white or any other character she saw in movies or read about in books. A Man who would make her feel special and would make her believe in Miracles once again. She didn’t want the heartbreak so she tried her best not to trust people so easily. She desired love and wanted to love back with all her heart protecting her innocence. She would often get the attention of men who would say that they are in love with her but no one touched her heart. She didn’t have interest in men getting attracted to her eyes, lips or her body. She wanted someone to know her heart, someone who could promise her to make things alright, someone she could lean on when she’s low and the one who would love her the way she was. She was scared to give it a try, scared of meeting anyone thinking they might break her heart into more pieces. Her fear kept her away from finding love for her life and it became almost impossible for her to trust anyone.
‘’It was different for her because she didn’t want Love
But wanted to be loved by someone’’
THE HEART GOT READY TO ACCEPT LOVE
After she completed her studies, parents were getting worried about her marriage. She often heard people say that if something could break the years of misery for them, it would be her marriage. She was scared of the thought of going away from her parents because she knew they were her only assets and love for whom she was conquering the challenges of life. But on the other hand she knew that getting married would make them happy so she decided to choose someone who would always love her and never break her heart. She started going to meet guys her dad selected as suitable match for her. Every time she met anyone and looked into their eyes, she never got the assurance that she was expecting for. But she still kept on praying to God and believed this time a miracle would happen and she will get the one for whom she has been waiting for.
SHE FELL IN LOVE
Finally the day came when she met someone who really touched her heart. A man who promised to take care of her, one who understood what she went through and listened to her when she spoke her heart out. The thought of marrying this man didn’t scare her but she was happy welcoming someone like him in her life. The decision was made confidently and she got married to him. She thanked God for being so kind to her and for making her belief stronger that grew weak with time. She started her new life with a cheerful heart and her husband loved her immensely. He would do anything in his power to give every happiness and comfort to her. She could see her parents whenever she wanted to, nobody stopped her and she felt free and happy in this relationship. This is the love she must be looking for all these years.
‘’Please for the sake of my broken and exhausted heart, love me always and never make me feel alone.’’
WHEN THE BUBBLE OF LOVE BURSTED
When people with broken heart love someone, they do it with every piece they got. She knew she could trust her man and have the right to cry and be weak if she feels to. She knew this man would love her so deep and would accept her with her flaws. He was also available for her whenever she needed to go to market to buy anything and provide her whatever she needed. Nobody did that for her before except for her own parents so she was really happy with him. But was it all she ever wanted in life? There were low moments when she wanted to cry, for all these years she couldn’t share about how she felt and wanted her husband to listen to her and comfort her. But this man wasn’t the one she was expecting for. He would shut down himself whenever she got low and would try to escape from the situation. He couldn’t comfort her in anyway and she spent sleepless nights crying alone. The grief was real and she needed to heal her heart but the ignorant behaviour towards her emotions from the man she thought would make her happy was making her condition worse. He wasn’t the one who would take her flaws; he would only love her when she was happy and flawless. She read and saw everywhere that when you love someone, you don’t put conditions on your feelings. But this was the real world and not a book or a movie, her man was not able to take a little wrong from her and would try to revenge and punish her in all the ways. With each passing year, her heart begins to break again losing trust and belief. This is not what she asked for.
‘’You cannot explain her. You thought she was the good girl,
But once you get to know her, you realize she’s everything but not the one you wanted
She’s crazy, funny, intelligent and honest and so unpredictable.’’
THERE’S NO LOVE
We all expect love to be something that could be so pious and magical which would heal everything. There’s anything possible when you love someone. After all, this is the belief Bella had all her life but now she realized Love is also a sort of business where two people give and take carrying on a relationship. You can’t expect someone to love you selflessly first, you can’t expect someone to heal you or tolerate the flaws in you because these things won’t be of any use to the other person. For the first time when she came out of her dream world, she was taken aback from the real picture of love. It wasn’t the one defined in Poetries or romantic movies but something cruel and like a trade. It was not the heavenly feeling but trading of emotions where both parties must be benefited equally. No one would cry for you if you would cry & no one would wipe your tears but ignore them.
‘’She was lying awake every night and thought she got insomnia
But it was her troubled thoughts that made her restless
She always wondered if she will ever find the peace with her mind.’’
THE REAL LOVE
When she was left alone all these years to handle her emotions by herself, her heart grew bitter as a result and she started getting suffocated in this relationship. She didn’t know what to say or do to make the other person with her realize how much she has been suffering from inside and how much she needed him to come to her and hold her making strong again. She stopped valuing herself and forgot how much she was once admired and desired among everyone. At last she decided to give up on the thought of seeking help or support from the other person for her problems. She wanted to drive her happiness wagon now on her own and realized if she won’t love herself no one else would ever do that. If she won’t be happy within herself no one would make her feel so in life. Real love starts with you and so she started loving herself more than ever. She gave up the idea of arriving of a Prince who would save her from all the troubles and make her happy.
SHE FINALLY FELL IN LOVE WITH THE RIGHT PERSON AND IT WAS NO ONE ELSE BUT ‘’HER’’.
WHAT BELLA WANTED YOU ALL TO KNOW
She wanted to convey a message to people that all the romantic tales are true and real love does exist. Just because it didn’t happen with her doesn’t mean there’s no love. There are miracles happening everyday in life and you just have to open your heart to feel them. But in the quest of finding true love don’t devalue yourself ever and try to love yourself first. Never stop believing because belief is the pillar of life and doing well even when you’re hurt and shattered would only make you a better person. Doing bad to others and engaging oneself in destruction is very easy and only a weak person would choose this path. Strong people believe in subsiding their sorrows and helping others.
THE FIRST LOVE STARTS WITH YOU. SO START LOVING YOURSELF RIGHT NOW. THERE’S LOVE EVERYWHERE, WE JUST DON’T LOVE OURSELVES ENOUGH TO SEE IT.
‘’She was so beautiful but drowned into sadness
Always felt no one would ever love her
When someone said she was beautiful and they love her,
She would run and hide with a fear of getting heartbreak
She was a fool to think like that because everyone love her
She just had to learn to love herself.’’