Just because he tells you it's your fault, you're 'crazy', you're this or that, if you could have just changed insert here it could have worked, does not mean it's the truth.
Do not let him shame you.
Do not let him twist the truth.
Do not let him take your vulnerably and abuse you with it.
Stop begging him to forgive you and asking him to come back. Stop telling him you'll try harder this time. Stop handing over your heart to a man who is going to stomp on it AGAIN like he's done over and over and over again. He's proven who he is time and time again and he hasn't changed.
Trying harder will not make the abuse stop. Doing better will not make him love and accept you because he doesn't love and accept himself. Your love can't heal his wounded soul. YOUR LOVE WON'T HEAL HIM!
I want you to take a moment and say the following out loud with power and conviction. Yell it if you need to...
I am a beautiful, sensitive, empathic woman who deserves to be loved, honoured and cherished.
My love is a gift, my energy is a gift, my essence is a gift. I am a gift.
I choose from this moment forward to share myself only with those who treat me with love and respect.
I choose to love myself first. I am the love of my life before I am anyone else's.