As I sat in that rental truck, that I was now living in, over 3 years ago, I vividly remember a conversation of despair and hopelessness:
I said to the person with me, "you know I can't ever see my life without drugs again. The inability to be a functional human being aside from using seems utterly impossible! I have to use, I can't deal with the depression, just lying in the bed, unable to move, eat, or speak. I have loss all hope of being normal again, of feeling normal again. I guess this is how my life will end."
This was the very real and candid conversation just over 3 years ago. My depression was fueling my addiction, and my addiction was fueling my depression. It was a vicious circle of destruction to my soul, and to all who cared for me.
I share this today because I was led to remind everyone who is experiencing any form of hopelessness: Whether its depression, broken relationships, divorce, child custody issues, illness, loss, self hate, or suicidal thoughts---
You will and can overcome by the grace of God, and no matter how dark it gets, I promise there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I am praying for you and pulling for you! We are one in spirit! This message is for you, God is speaking to you!!
Much love to all!❤
