Why do I feel this way? why do I feel so hurt and betrayed? why do I feel like crying but cant seem to find the tears. You are the love of my life, the one my heart chose, my first love ever, the first one I will ever share deep romantic feeling with but why does it hurt this much?
I cant seem to forget the very words you uttered, you thought you were only trying to encourage me to doing better but those very words that were intended to build me up is now breaking me.
What should I do? should I rise up from this mess I am now, or allow myself deepen in this pain I feel. Why does love suddenly feel like a burden, love is meant to be sweet, now it feels so sour, love is meant to bring happiness but all I feel now is sadness. I want to walk out on you but I cant find my feet, I want to scream but my voice cant be found.
Is this what love is? or have I been living in a delusion I created.
We have shared beautiful moments together, built things together, saw the future together but the truth is, I eel so betrayed, by the one I love. I thought you beleived in me, are you giving up on me now? Even if I walk out now, I wont have a single regret because I know I loved you unconditionally. I will hold on to the memories of you as I move on...
