There would be a time when you are bound to enter a relationship... Bound to start a journey with a person you never knew before. A journey that would sometimes lead to an enjoyable future but all you need to do is find that perfect one. 
A friend of mine was once in a relationship where her spouse practically depends on her for almost everything and yet when she makes a little mistake her spouse would beat her and call her names but because she loved him she kept on enduring it all but the beating started becoming more frequent and she decided to leave him because she couldn't take it anymore. This is someone that loved her spouse unconditional and even when he wasn't treating her right she kept on giving but he took it for weakness. So she finally decided to leave and there was no way he could beg her to come back as his pleas fell on defect hears. I would not say her spouse loved her, would you? I really breaks my heart when I see things like this and i sit down and ask myself " is it wrong to love ".
You should know your worth and be with someone that deserves and is worthy of you. You shouldn't be in a relationship and be dieing silently all in the name of its the right thing to do or because your trying to live an exemplary live. If it's not working then move on.There is time for everything, maybe that time isn't now but it would definitely come you just have to be patient. I don't believe loving a person so much is bad but it should be someone that deserves you and knows your worth.
Still your lovely steemian 