It is with a heavy heart that I have to report the complete failure of the Mad World Music Contest second edition. It was a project that was near to my heart but it seems it was a stillbirth as the deadline came and went. So I am laying it to rest. The failure of this contest and the failure that my one project seems to be makes me sad but I have only myself to blame. I tend to try to reach out to a world that really does not have any room for me or my ideas . Steemit like most social media is in most parts an echo chamber. It was not always this way, when I first came here people were actually reading each others content, commenting collaborating . Somewhere along the way it became less and less and now it seems people are just mostly auto upvoting each other and basically talking to themselves in the illusion that someone is listening.
It just takes all the umpf out of it for me and basically all my drive. I am aware that most artists are very engaged in themselves and their work - they want to be seen and heard . And in parts I am no different. The things is that I learned early that art for me becomes less satisfying if I do not create with others , share and give and receive real feedback. I know I am good and most flattery just annoys the fuck out of me. I want to crawl in other people's minds and make art babies . For me art is communication but it is worth nothing long term if the communication is one sided or is limited to the audience artist padegim. If you are just speaking to an audience you become a preacher to your congregation, it is communication but it is not communication with equals; and as a creative force is limited to just one vessel.
Collaborations, contests , challenges on the other hand is an equivalent of creating worlds with each other, a place to live in for each other, something that is a child of all . It is communication between equally matched forces and it is that which is in most part my primary drive. So I am sad that it seems that this need to connect from my solitary tower is not really reciprocated. In the end whining will not change that so i just need to cut my losses and soldier on, but I am also not going to keep on breaking my own heart so I am laying Madworld to rest and if nothing comes of One within the next 2 months I will lay it to rest as well .
So now to my other stuff. I will still be collabing with those who are interested but I am going to stop giving so much of myself to those who do not give it back. I already have pulled back a lot from those who never even bother to respond to comments or support my content. What not everyone knows is that I do not autovote. Every upvote , every comment means that I read , listened and looked at your content . It means I liked what you put out there and if I comment it means even more. I don't do low calorie communication and even if I just leave you an emoticon it was heartfelt because I refuse to engage in empty niceties. The thing is I apricaite upvotes but they mean so much less to me than real feedback and communication -and lately I have been starving here but stupidly keep putting way to much time into the platform. This is going to change. I am from now on going to limit my time here and listen to the very, very good advice a friend once gave me that I oh so often forget " Do not make someone your priority tha considers you just an option ". Like most misfit toys I often put up with stuff out of loneliness in hopes to find a spot I finally fit - it seriously annoys me that with 50 I still seem to do this in one way or another; one would think I would understand by not to do this. But sadly I am fallible like all those of my species .
As is, Mad world is dead, The fate of ONE will be decided in the next 2 months and depending on the entries this month I might be retiring Electric dreams as well. I will no longer kill myself trying to read tons of content of people who do not engage with me in return- I am over it . The unclaimed Prize Money for Mad World is going to so 
Rest in peace Mad World for those who missed the first successful round here is a link ashes to ashes -
Thank you for the fish and have a nice day ....
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