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Have I been petrified by my own power?
And if so: How can I shine more light onto this fear? ~Ally.
Drawing has always been my first love. And yet for many a moon now, I haven't drawn. I've asked myself over and over: 'Why aren't you drawing?'
I've journeyed into and loved many other creative fields: Collage, photography and montage, sculpture and for the past four years ephemeral art using natural materials.
All this time I've known in my heart that I needed to be drawing again, but my mind had other plans: Try this. And then this.
And although my mind is still saying: 'Maybe tomorrow' there comes a time when the voice of the heart says a little more earnestly: 'Follow me. Together we will have so many Magical Moments.'
I remember.
'What I want also wants me. Is looking for me. And attracting me.' ~Rumi.
I voice my wants.
I want to see and feel my light shine.
As if, she is shining now for the very first time.
I want the love of the creator to be reflected in my drawing.
To help me draw again.
I will feel the pencil in my hand.
I will breathe in the Spirit of Creativity.
I will play music. Mist the room with Rosemary. Hum to myself.
So that when 'I sit in my own place of patience. What I need flows to me.' ~Rumi.
Introduction to my previous drawings.
As I share these very antiquated drawings, that I drew almost thirty years ago, I can't say what I'm feeling about my need to draw again, any more eloquently than Marianne Williamson.
At the time of drawing these studies of flowers floating on water, I was teaching drawing and watercolour at a Community College in Sydney and curated an exhibition: 'Small is Beautiful' where all the students submitted between 6 to 12 small drawings: Each 90 mms x 150 mms. These three drawings were included in that exhibition. A surprise awaits anyone who can tell me what the flowers are.
What I have in mind and heart to draw now will be different again. Starting with some shells and circles and magic.
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. ~Marianne Williamson.
We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. ~Marianne Williamson.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. ~Marianne Williamson.
Drawings: ©Alison Lee Cousland.
