All things if done with a sense of restraint will not feel good, I am not at all afraid of the decisions I take will fail, at least I failed because of my own choices, not the choices of others. Everyone has a future, and not all futures have to be tied to material success, which involves driving fancy cars, dressing neatly everywhere, eating out at expensive places, and shopping at fancy places. No... that's not what I want, I just want to be closer to the creator, and live a life according to His rules, live a simple, independent life, have an understanding partner and happiness in my small family in the future, it's enough to make me happy and feel calm in life. and I can only try. God willing, everything will be answered by God's will. Maybe this was just a dream that meant nothing to some upper-class people. but I don't care, because everyone has their share of happiness, so keep being yourself and keep the spirit :)