If there ever was a gateway drug it would not be marijuana it would be alcohol. I was raised to believe that drugs were the "diablo" and everyone associated with them were demons, ( I.E. My friends). We all have heard that saying, "marijuana is a gateway drug- it will lead to harder more fatal drugs. Well If this is true, which might be for some because I can't speak for everyone but myself and I feel that if it was a gateway drug, it was simply because of the curiosity that sparked with ignorance lost. The government, teachers, and society told us that this beautiful flower
is so evil and has no medical potential what so ever.
You see addicts are very curious creatures, in my 15-16 year old head, before I even touched drugs, I was afraid of them. Mostly afraid of dissapointing my parents, getting suspended from school, problems with the law.,... ALL of which exacerbate the situation for a young kid, possibly ruining their higher education, employment etc...but when someone tells you not to do something you tend to ask why? Once one finds out that marijuana is less intoxicating than alcohol and scarcely inhibits your motor skills, you the addict and his logic come to the conclusion that everyone is wrong about the dangers and risk of harder drugs as well.
In fact I would find it hard to call someone who smokes marijuana maybe 2 -3 times a day a junkie or even an addict. Marijuana Is not an addicting (physically) substance, I can stop anytime with horrible withdrawl symptoms of less interest in video games for the week, but you know what I can not kick. These darn Pharmeceuticals that doctors pass out like candy. You see my drug dealer for quite a while was a psychiatrist who drove a benz, why? because he got ME hooked on benzos. I of course can not blame all my problems on big pharma there were other factors of that actually put me in that position.. to feel so anxious and have the need, ( which eventually turned into a want) for my panic attacks.
I however am an addict who has been through some tough relapses, reminding me that I will always be an addict. I don't really know where I am going with this but I have definitely seen some dark days, perhaps by writing it down and sharing I can get a deeper understanding of why I just can't stop.