Memoir of a Mighty Mountain

Memoir of a Mighty Mountain

by Red Rose Grace

That day was a particularly stressful one. I had almost given up. I was ready to throw my paintings in the trash along with all my hard work. I thought to myself, what was all the sacrifice for anyway, If I don’t even have the strength to let my voice be heard? I’m tired to feeling small and stepped on. I threw my paint brushes into a recycled baby formula can that had laying around the kitchen as I walked upstairs in despair.

When I got upstairs, I thought maybe a shower can help ease this stress. I entered the shower and began to think about the day and how much I was in the need of finding my voice. I remembered looking up the healing nature of the water. Thinking, what the heck let’s try it. I closed my eyes and began to meditate in the shower. I asked the water to heal me by accepting this negative energy I wished to release. The water agreed and took me on a magical journey.

In my meditation, I envisioned myself in the woods. I gazed up at the sturdy trees and admired their beauty. Just then, I started to grow taller and taller. Now, I was above the trees and noticed the people below and they noticed me back. My insecurities unwillingly alerted me to the people pointing and running from me. At first, I felt that they were scared of me, but why? I pose no threat to them, I only want to share the love in my heart. The second fear set in, I was afraid they wanted to hurt me because of the truth I was about to release. I felt a voice come in and guide me through the experience, my fairy God mother so to speak. She said “keep growing, they can’t hurt you, they need you, mama Gaia needs you”.

Suddenly, I felt safe, protected and loved. I realized I am not alone. I was surrounded by angelic beings of love and light. Just then a radiant light lit up around me. The light represented my aura and vibration. I then grew even larger. I saw the people getting smaller and smaller as I became more at peace with myself. Again, entered the voice, “Your presence is mighty, just stand peacefully still.” I paused for a moment bringing to awareness fears I needed to let go in this moment. The love for myself began to transform me and I was happy to just be. At that moment, I looked down at my body to what I have become. I have grown into a mighty mountain. I was growing so tall my peak had reached over the clouds. I saw the stars and marveled in their beauty. I felt the air all the way up on the top of the mountain was different. I took in a few deep breaths and let the air out slowly. In my new-found clarity, even as the mighty mountain I was, I looked up and still felt so small gazing at the stars. I admired the stars and their vast history. I felt humbled in their presence thinking, missing a feeling of connection to their infinite light. A beautiful shooting star swooshed by and waved at me. I winked back playfully. Beautiful blue and purple lights radiate downward from distant galaxies. The glowing light beamed down directly at me. I felt the light crown my head and enter the peak of my mountain top.

I carried the light through me and all the way down, deep into the Earth. I thought about the body of the mountain and the fire and lava it had in its core. An awareness crept in of beings that lived within my mountain essence. Giants living and moving great energies around. They were very large, but not as large as me. For I was the embodiment of which that moved through. I started to take notice of my mountain side. How the water ran all the way down the side to nourish the people. I thought of the waterfalls and how beautiful and healing they are. What a magical place! I felt the animals that lived on the mountain. There are even fairies and gnomes in these imaginary healing realms of my mind. Great elder tree spirits with their roots dug in deep into my being. What an honor creating a foundation for them to thrive. A warm feeling came in. It was the great sun. Our connection was ever bright and rejuvenating. Thank you sun for taking part in the water that runs down my side. I realized the water in the shower was doing the same to my actual body. Cleansing all the vibrations that no longer serve me on my journey towards purpose and service.

Startled by the water in the shower as it began to run cold sending me out of this whimsical meditation. Feeling reality striking and sending me back to my plane of existence. Here, I’m here. I’m within this vehicle called Rachel. I was in shock for a moment. What had just happened? I was a little different. I felt more confident and humbled at the same time. I was in a peaceful place within myself and I felt the fears that I once had replaced by a overall feeling to tingling peace trickling all the way down to my toes. I stepped out of the shower with renewed awareness and appreciation for life. It was time to use my voice and stand tall, I said to myself. Later that night, I tucked my little ones into bed and kissed their foreheads. Everything I do, I do it for you my little dears, I said to them. They smiled up at me and I smiled back. Mommy is a mighty mountain that will stand tall and weather all the storms so that you can live healthy and free.

Blessings to you my loved one, May you find that this experience I have shared brings you to great heights. My wish for you is that you feel limitless! Reach through the parameters of our own frontiers and let the light in. Grow tall and meet me on the great mountain that peaks above the clouds. There you are adored by the stars. Flow waterways of light and love energies to heal all aspects of you. You are magnificent, and you are mighty. Love, Red Rose Grace