“You’re not a person. You’re a planet made of roughly 40,000,000,000,000 cells.”
On my meditation/journey this morning I set this divine intention:
Understand the body better.
Immediate response: “There is no singular body or an ‘I’ to go with it. There is just all of us. Individual organs, systems, cells, molecules, and the like with various mechanisms to obtain awareness and attention.”
The last few weeks I’ve been working to remove judgments from my thinking process. I‘ve witnessed numerous examples where I’ll see someone’s actions, make a judgment, and then find myself in the same situation less than 24 hours later. I got a nugget of wisdom from A friend this morning on the difference between judgement and assessment. Assessments aren’t about people, they are just describing what is, as required by various responsibilities.
So here’s an assessment:
The individual voluntaryist (i.e. me) is actually the dictator of a universe of sub conscious processes and systems that are almost entirely controlled with no autonomy at all. “Do your job, cell, or be destroyed!” and the concerning part, like the Squid Game, is that “we” are the ones doing the destroying. At first this seems horrifying to realize that created things are destroyed and recycled for the benefit of other systems of created things, but then I realized it’s a system of consensus. The process of evolution keeps things in balance enough that we are here, now, a planet of sorts experiencing itself as a person, all 40 trillions cells together.
Before I try to go about improving the world with new technologies and ideas about increasing freedom, autonomy, and the like, I’m going to learn how to tune in to this body I’ve had for over forty years and learn how to be less of a dictator over it. I’m learning to listen to its many signals and work to coordinate them for a benefit of all. The more the sense of “I” gives way to the truth of a multitude of connected awarenesses working together to facilitate what is labeled the human being Luke Stokes, the less wrong I will be about my true nature and the nature of reality.
Maybe someday “I” can learn to use language (or invent it, if need be) to more accurately describe the experience (and the experiencer) currently unfolding.