Odd Conundrum

As confusing as the main title reads, that’s how I had been going through life for a good amount of time. I couldn’t work the logic behind it, but it went something like this – I shouldn’t be focused on money; instead, I should be focused on work. There’s nothing wrong with the statement, as the underlying assumption is that if my work is good, then money should follow. And I assure you that’s not what I experienced.

It was an odd arms-length that I had with money. I used to feel worried if I looked at money for too long. The inner voice/s would be blaring at a high pitch that I should be focused on my job and not money. This was difficult because I could never look at money or the raise that I should be planning. Or even another job with better monetary benefits.

Life was on autopilot – do the work, and money will follow. Until the work remained, but no money. Even then, I was scared to look money straight in the eye. So, I had to plan my work and business without taking money into consideration. I had a ballpark for money from each line of business but would avoid getting into details.

It was blatantly silly, comprehensively idiotic, and naturally stupid. How would you run a business whose success is based on the money that you make, and you wouldn’t want to look at money? Well, what can I say?

Odds With Money | Nothing New | Same Old Same Old

As an energy exercise practitioner, knowing EFT, NLP, and Ho’oponopono and having solved many of the underlying negatives in my life, I have had minimal to no success with money. I’ve been in a job, and I’ve been in business, but without exception, I have been only at loggerheads with money. There is no getting around this.

And to let you know, I have tried clearing a lot of things. Some of them are as follows:

1. Money is evil
2. God and money can’t go together
3. Focusing on money will eventually make money my god
4. Those focusing on money don’t become big in life
5. The successful CEOs are the ones who were passionate about work and not money

There were many more. But do you see that most of the points make sense and kind of got me opposed to money. This opposition is what I got tamed in all of my energy exercises. Then, shouldn’t I be ok with money? Strangely, no. I still had a problem with money.

It was just beyond me how could a CEO or business owner be successful, if they do not think of the money that his/her business would make? It was no longer about the individual alone but about the company as a whole. If I couldn’t be ok with money then there was something drastically wrong. And that scared me. Because I thought, in my eagerness to correct things about money, I would likely get involved with money and eventually make it my god.

Oh, baloney. I was screwed.

Some Hope | Some Clearing

Then I tried a new approach. To not think about money for a certain period of time, until I had no choice but to think about it (bills don't wait for my experiment, right?). Here's what happened. After going weeks without thinking about money, and then, when the bills arrived, thinking about money again, yet keeping an arm's length distance from it, I realized I wasn’t getting anywhere. It was a hopeless endeavor to achieve nothing. But then something chimed.

I had to go back to God and the tools in the form of energy exercises that God had shown me. On one of the sessions around money and my inescapable zero traction on the topic, I got back to an old conversation with a friend. This was just around the time both of us had started work, and I got into stock trading in full gusto.

So, during one of our evenings catching up, I told him about stock trading and how he could do it too. I remember now what he said:

“I don’t want to look at stocks. Because if I do, I will be unable to take myself out of it and will not be able to focus on my work.”

This is all he said. I still am clueless as to where the stocks in the statement were replaced with money. It is easy to surmise that stocks were about money, so I am assuming that at some point, I focused too much on what he said and reorganized the statement in my head as follows:

“I don’t want to look at money. Because if I do, I will be unable to take myself out of it and will not be able to focus on my work.”

Notice how not only did I change stocks to money but also internalized my friend’s statement as my own. If neither of them had happened, I would have been in a better position. So, what did I do next?

Energy exercise and relieving myself from the cold embrace of unwanted feelings. So, I reinforced my mind with a new thought that work and money both are fine, and I can work to earn money. It’s absolutely possible and alright. It is also fine to look at money and plan for the amount of money that I would earn. That kind of took away the edge from my mind. I feel a lot freer to look at money and its planning.

A Sigh of Relief

I’ve got to admit that the kind of suspense and unease around money and the suspended animation in which I placed money seems to have dissolved to a certain extent. I am certain that this would be a strong move forward. I am eager to see how things pan out.

For those who are in a similar situation to mine, I hope the article helps, or at least points you in the right direction. I hope you can find the areas to clear and move forward in faith. Above all, it’s by God’s mercy that I could find these corrections, and I will forever be indebted to the Almighty Father, Jesus Christ, His Son, and the Holy Spirit!!

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