I have struggled with the demons of my past haunting my present. I have found it hard to forgive myself for past mistakes that have caused pain to the most important people in my life.

If the consequences of my past had only affected me I would probably find it easier to accept and not live with regret and guilt. But because others were made to suffer due to my actions and inability to slay my dragon so to speak I struggle to let the past go in order to move forward into the future.

As usual your words are wise and I can see exactly the point you are making but still feel the weight of my past pressing heavily on my shoulders. I know that I need to let it go but it is a battle, some days are better than others but guilt and regret still creep in and burden my soul.

My future is uncertain and I feel like I am walking a path trying to find my way through the thickest of fog hindering my sight forwards. One day I hope the fog will lift and I will see with much more clarity my true path. If not then I will continue walking, doing the things that I feel will give me the best shot at a reasonable future in a much better situation than I find myself now.

Thank you for your posts, they provide me with a small amount of hope that I can find my way out of the fog.
I hope that opportunity will present itself and I will not miss it due to my blindness, I really hope that I can grab hold of it with both hands and never let go and have the fortitude to put in the effort that may be required to capture the moment when it takes shape.