Technically I did make some freedom dollars, but you get what I mean. I just did not dedicate any time towards earning any income, even outright refused it, like posting actively here on the blockchain. It's basically free money for me seeing that I have good support from the community but I decided to leave $100,000s of dollars on the table by going on a hiatus.
"Why are you so weird?" My mum asked.
It took me a really long time to be able to form a response.
Reason #1: I'm a crypto seller.
Imagine that you're a fruit seller and your customer pays you top dollar. Will you give them nothing but the best damn fruit ever? If you're a person with some pride or integrity or courtesy, you will likely want to give the best damn fruit ever. Nothing less. The same goes for being a crypto seller methinks.
Look, I've made yummy returns during 2016-2017 for little to no work, being an uber early BTC/ETH/HIVE/STEEM adopter. The market paid me what I consider to be top dollar. I really am grateful, but I'm not truly convinced they're top dollar cryptos and sh*tposts. So I intended to give back to the market someday by making it my mission to find and unearth the world's best damn crypto and content when I exited my dayjob back then.
The first big hurdle was to figure out for myself if BTC is already the best damn crypto possible. How about ETH? How about the hundreds and thousands of other cryptos out there? What do I really mean by the best damn crypto possible in the first place?
It didn't take long before the seed of the answers fell onto my lap in late-2017. My good internet friend 
I wrote about it here a few times here to inform the community throughout the years, even told some of my close friends but it looked like nobody cared about what I have to say. So I thought I needed to be better, which is why I've spent the past 5 years meditating over this crypto exclusively. I could have just posted about other things here and worked on random things for the cashmoney, but I just could not take my eyes off the bestest prize.
My intentions can be corroborated by my activities here on the chain. I'm a crypto seller who wants to bring you the best goddamn crypto ever.
I thought I'd start to make money again talking about this crypto once I better understood it, but no, there were more reasons that kept me from doing so.
Reason #2: I'm a high scorer.
A desire to be a high scorer @ Tau.net / $AGRS grew within me during the 3rd year of my meditation. I've already spent so much time obsessing over it, so why not be a high scorer? It's what I do for my favorite video games anyway, so why am I not doing the same for my favorite crypto?
This is also the reason why I was barely active in my postings. I could only think about this crypto, so naturally it'd be the only thing that I will constantly talk about. But if I do that, I'd make it more expensive to accumulate myself. Why go out of my way to actively tell everyone about this crypto when they barely show any signs of interest, opting for memecoins, monkey jpegs and eth clones instead?
So f*ck it I said. I'll just chill and accumulate in peace. Y'all can buy them at a higher price later, I don't mind.
I'm not a filthy rich dude, so I really took the time to scoop this crypto up. Being stealthy is a perfectly valid wartime strategy. I've never accumulated anything for more than 3 days before, let alone 5 years. I thought that'd be enough incentive to get me started again by the end of it but nope. More reasons!
Reason #3: Fear of success.
I don't mind succeeding in anything like most of us, but I think the success of this crypto will have an overwhelmingly huge impact on the world and of course, my life seeing that I'm an early adopter. I'd like to suck on the warm tits of my comfort zone for just a little while longer, hence my hesitance to talk about it too much. So I was kinda stuck, unable to make much out of my biggest interest for the longest time.
This reason became somewhat null recently as I managed to find a harem of waifus that I want to share the success with if it really happens. I'm a simple guy. But.. you guessed it. There's still one more thing..
Reason #4: Misaligned incentives.
This is the last thing that held me back. It's arguably the biggest reason. I've only realized this yesterday as I really wanted move on to the next phase of my crypto journey.
Let's say if I'm really able to help the Tau.net / $AGRS community grow 2x or even 10x sustainably within the first 100 days once I really begin talking about it, what will I get for vastly outperforming the marketing/growth-related company members (or the CEO?) behind this project?
They've been working on a salary for the past 4 years for seemingly zero growth. Granted it's not easy to convince the market without the end-product yet, but why are memecoins flying past this crypto then? Something is wrong.
So I've been stalling my return from the dead in hopes that they'll perform. Maybe they just needed the time to improve their game. I'm sure they're all hardworkers.
But it has been so many years and I can't really wait on the sidelines anymore, hence my willingness to let go. It's not like they've done absolutely nothing. It's also a matter of teamwork. Maybe I'm one of the missing puzzle pieces? I don't know. I can only try.
Resolution.
Now with all 4 reasons out of the way, there is nothing left to hold me back now except for my lazy ass. I don't think I'm weird at all, mum. It's not that I really refused to make money for the past 5 years. I just had a bigger fish to fry!
Wow writing this post has been so cathartic. Hope you enjoyed reading the mess. None of this is financial advice obviously.