Great post Hive account@enterthespectrum! I have a lot to relate from your journey and your feelings regarding motivation. Motivation is great to get you going in the first place but it's what you do when you have no motivation that really matters.

There is something very zen about going to the gym and pushing your body and mind each and every time.

Great to hear you've find that fire inside you to keep going for your goals. I hope to see more posts until you are running competitively.

Cheers!
Bryan