Years ago, someone close to me told me that I was an Energy Vampire.
At the time I had no idea what he meant, but I do now.

Psychic Attacks are usually maliciously deliberate and intentional, but sometimes they are performed by people who aren’t even aware they are doing it.
That was the case with me.

Imagine sinking in a swirling vortex of darkness and despair.
You are drowning and desperately reaching out to anyone there who can save you. You grab on to them and try to pull yourself free, but the vortex is too powerful and you start to drag them down with you. It wasn’t your intention to hurt them, but you did it anyway and now they are sinking with you. You hate yourself for being this way, but it’s better than being alone. There’s something wired wrong in you and it’s not how you want to be.

That’s who I was when I was younger. I was so self-absorbed in my own darkness and pain that I hurt others without even realizing it.
There was such a void within me that I would feed off of other people's energy and drain them without ever giving any energy back.
The universe eventually sent me a message by having me experience the other side of this and that was when I changed.
It’s a cathartic realization and impetus for change when you are so wrapped up in your own bullshit that you think you are the victim, but you finally realize that you are actually the monster.
If I’m not careful and aware, I can still be emotionally draining as The Husband can attest to. But every day I try to be aware of my thoughts, feelings, and energy and be a better person than I was the day before.

Energy

There's something wired wrong in me
It's not how I wanna be
It's not how I wanna be
It's like a parasite that feeds
It's not how I wanna be
It's not how I wanna be
But when you feel like you're addicted to someone
When you feel like you just can't give enough
I'll take all your energy and steal your heart
Like a vampire steals your breath
I'll take all you energy
I'm a thief in the dark
And you'll never ever know I'm there
Because I'm nowhere
I'll drain you till your soul is weak
It's not how I wanna be
It's not how I wanna be
I'll take what I want to only leave
It's not how I wanna be
It's not how I wanna be
But when you feel like you're addicted to someone
When you feel like you just can't give enough
I'll take all your energy and steal your heart
Like a vampire steals your breath
I'll take all you energy
I'm a thief in the dark
And you'll never ever know I'm there
Because I'm nowhere