Hi Everyone,
Okay since two days ago, I had some troubles with playing the violin. There was one song. A really easy one to learn, that I just couldn’t play. How much I tried and practiced, it was a disaster every time. It was getting me on my nerve and made me insecure. I couldn’t play any song well because of that. I thought how the hell am I not able to play this, when I already playing more difficult song. I just couldn’t relax, while I was playing.
I already had a lot of stress because of my work and my health. The violin means a lot to me. For me it’s so important, because that’s a way for me to relieve the stress and relax. To enjoy the things and to see light in the darkness.
I had my violin lesson today. For the first time I really didn’t wanted to go, but I went any way. I just couldn’t let myself down. So I told my teacher what the problem was and we practiced it little by little. Over and over again. Till I was able to finally play it well. It’s not perfect yet but it’s a step in the right way. The problem is that I’m too hard on myself and push myself to the limit. Sometimes that great, because I can get more out myself. But sometimes it’s the reason that holds me down. I’m happy that I could break the frustration. I have a lot to learn and I really want to be able to play the songs I really love. It will be a long way, before I’m able to play like that. But it makes me happy to see myself grow.
Since I first started playing the violin 5 months ago. I wasn’t able to play it yet. But now I’m already play with all my fingers, I can play some Christmas songs, I read notes, I can hear the differences in tones with my hearing and I’m already cable in playing some songs. I also started to practice with an ensemble group where we all play a part in a music piece. It’s just a start in following my dream. To be able to play the instrument I love with all my heart.
Never Give Up in the things you Believe in and what you Love.