I was watching this just now because I found it unlisted and mistitled in my youtube videos. So I titled it properly and decided I'd make it public. I recorded it for open mic last year. Almost exactly a year ago, it was a year ago a week or so ago. I cut out the part where I introduce myself for open mic. The reason is because I don't want to share my STEEM activities on my YouTube. I have said it for what seems like dozens of times now, my place here is for being personal. My YouTube is for being public.
Well, anyway. Somehow, this won first place for Open Mic week 103. I still don't understand how that has ever happened when I rewatch these videos. It's hard to watch myself sometimes. I always find myself wishing I was more confident, maybe I should look at the camera more, maybe I should not look at the camera at all because I look creepy and weird.
Who knows? All I know is that I do like this song, and I like the studio recording I did of it, but there is just something more personal about sharing a live video. Here are the lyrics. And a picture so the thumbnail isn't of a text divider on steemit.
©2019 s.matthews/@paintingangels
Revelation
I'm having bad thought after bad thought after bad thought today.
Everything is falling down on top of me.
I wanna lie here on this cold, hard ground and cry for awhile.
I really don't care who sees me at this point in time
It's been a bad, bad day
How I wish that I could
just cry myself away
It's been a bad, bad day
How I wish that I could
sprout wings and fly away
away, away
The rain starts to fall
and it stays for awhile
but then the clouds roll away
The sun creeps around
and it paints an awful
glow on this place
It's not what I want
No, not right now
I just wanna be gray
I wanna lie here on the grass
And feel the rain on my face
It's been a bad, bad day
How I wish that I could
just cry myself away
It's been a bad, bad day
God, how I wish that I could
sprout wings and fly away
away away...
©2018 paintingangels
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Bye now. ♥ -serena