First Time Playing Piano While On Mescaline Thinking of My Mother After Having Witnessed my Birth on DMT

I recently moved to a different state. I've been away from my family for some time now. I never realized what they meant to me until now. I miss them very much. While I was thinking of my deceased dad (rest in peace dad, I miss you very much) I started to think about my mother. Then I found myself thinking of my latest DMT trip, an intense, deeply profound and long lasting trip during which I witnessed the Universal Uterus of Life giving birth to me through my mother. It was beautiful.

I thought about how at times I've been a bad son. I thought about how I've disrespected her sometimes in the past. I thought about how amazing and strong she is. Especially after my father is gone, she is hanging on. I thought about how beautiful she is and how everyone loves her and praises and how proud I am to be born through her and so very lucky that out of so many people on this Earth, she is the one that gave birth to me, raised me and loves me. I thought that I really need to show her how much I love her and care for her before she is gone and I'm all alone in the world. It is very important to take time and let the ones you love, know that you love them. Life is short.

I found myself in such a state of deep love and admiration for my mother as I have never felt before.

I have never played piano before because I have never had access to it. I've maybe touched a keyboard once or twice in my youth as a child. I took a lot of Peyote recently with some native people and later discovered a piano in this house. I don't know how to play it and I don't know and techniques. I've only ever seen it played by others on TV and sometimes in real life.

I used this state of mind, coupled with meditation, self-inquiry, and psychedelics to intensify the deep love that I feel for my mom and give in to the moment, abandon into ecstasy of the moment, feel a disentanglement of being and guide and channel all of my energies toward making my mother happy.

This Is The Voice of The Soul of a Son Letting His Mother Know How Much He Loves Her

Anything made from this post will be donated directly to my mother's healthcare costs.

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I Now Use My Own Music For Meditation While On Cannabis

https://steemit.com/cannabis/@the-stoned-ape/how-the-stoned-ape-meditates-on-cannabis - I've started to meditate on my own music instead of listening to other stuff on Youtube etc. This is a lot more amazing and beneficial because I know and feel all the feelings and emotions of my own created music while I meditate and go deeply inwardly.

Sincerely, with love,

The Stoned Ape