When you wake in the morning and some song is playing in your head that seems to have no business being there...you haven't heard it recently...maybe it wasn't even a song that you particularly like... I'm crazy enough to look for synchronicities, and since I write early in the mornings, I find stuff like this, half written and forgotten about:
Adderall
She comes in the late afternoon, skinny, sexy and wearing secrets, dark eyes behind over-sized sunglasses…a hair trigger challenge on her lips if you ask her where she’s been - things about trust.
Not that I’ve ever asked, and I wouldn’t. I’ve seen this all before, and before.
She kicks off her sexy shoes and comes down a level, pouring a glass of wine from the box she carries in one hand. Is it almost empty? A confident smile comes to her face in this quiet space of peace, and she knows she will be left alone. Not asked to be accountable. But the anxiety coming from her is a vibration that bounces off of every surface like music.
So she puts the music on.
Duran Duran (Believe it or not) 1993
Come Undone
My immaculate dream made of breath and skin
I've been waiting for you
Signed, with a home tattoo
"Happy birthday to you" was created for you
Can't ever keep from falling apart at the seams
Can I believe you're taking my heart to pieces
Ahh, it'll take a little time
Might take a little crime to come undone
Now we'll try to stay blind to the hope and fear outside
Hey child, stay wilder than the wind and blow me in to cry
Who do you need?
Who do you love?
When you come undone
Who do you need?
Who do you love?
When you come undone
Words, playing me deja vu
Like a radio tune I swear I've heard before
Chill, is it something real?
Or the magic I'm feeding off your fingers
Can't ever keep from falling apart at the seams
Can I believe you're taking my heart to pieces
Lost, in a snow filled sky
We'll make it alright to come undone
Now we'll try to stay blind to the hope and fear outside
Hey child, stay wilder than the wind and blow me in to cry
Who do you need?
Who do you love?
When you come undoneWho do you need?
Who do you love?
When you come undone
Who do you need?
Who do you love?
When you come undone
Can't ever keep from falling apart
Who do you need?
Who do you love?
When you come undone
Can't ever keep from falling apart
Who do you need?
Who do you love?
When you come undone
Can't ever keep from falling apart
Who do you need?
Who do you love?
When you come undone
This song kinda spooked me back then. It's just something that came on the radio, but it would hit me pretty deeply. I never looked up the lyrics until just now. I never really paid much attention to it. But then...I don't remember much of anything from then. I was giving cocaine a try for a couple of years.
Now, I think I'm sitting in a place of judging too much. I should be looking closer at Gratitude. Not everyone is lucky enough to go all the way when it comes to coming undone.
