Up against my own struggles.

I turn to watch a video I shot at the park to see how nature manages.

I am not sure how important it is for these ants to lug the bits of leaves to their hideout, but they seem more organized in their efforts than me.

Winning over sleep issues that have plagued me for more than twenty years lately is the good news. The bad news is that everything else, including all electronic communication and even my own person-hood, has been taken or suspended.

It has been two weeks since I was tossed into a time of uncertainty. Life tossed all physical possessions in a blender and they are still being spat out at one place or another. It is not just a move from one location to another. It is a tipping of circumstances that forces the decision to move from a place of comfort to temporary housing, then to whatever I could find.

On a moment's notice, I had my computer and the bare necessities in a bag and I was off to a questionable hotel. The first couple of days there had proven risky. A faulty door/lock meant that anyone could have walked off with my laptops, data, master-keys a fair amount of cash. A week of searching rendered a rental which is slightly more livable, and I am able to breath a bit as the door seems to lock. And I am currently able to peck away at the keyboard and get a post out.

One trunk at a time, I have gotten most of the things that I use all in one place, and I am out of space for the rest. A stack of boxes and pile of furniture still wait to be moved, but only to a corner at a friend's place until I find another home for it all.

The ants know where that leaf will end up, and they need only get it there. For now, I am jealously envious of that level of certainty.