So hive.blog. I still don't understand what is happening but I'm with you.
I am contemplating starting a youtube/d-tube channel but I don't have the courage yet. People don't have it all together but I think it says something about them if they can at least come across like having control. I am just everywhere inside the box and outside of the box.
Also in proximity to a camera I change. It's like measuring stuff in quantum physics, the observer effect, then what is being measured changes. That's how I operate. I don't feel like myself exactly when I watch it back. Anyway, so here I am. Still as confused and interested and passionate and other things.
I am currently helping somebody in my profession. I work with music since many years and I am helping him with his sound. He seems quite happy with the new input and also appreciate the time we've communicated about his project. I realize that it's nice to be able to say that there is time in my life for new people.
I also realize the problem with keeping everyone around and basically shutting new people out because of being busy. I take pride in having time, having a space in my heart for the future. At the same time, I did kick some people out. Maybe I will talk about that someday. I never trust that stuff on the internet are truly private so I hesitate to drag anyone else into my confessions. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings, I just want a happy life.