As i try and make new friends through this app or that. I find myself wondering if the person i have connected with is as honest and open as me? Was it by chance that this being collided with my being or Is this something planned by whatecer higher power you believe in? In the past few days i have met an amazing person, and it seems by chance we started to talk and then it has turned into someone i feel like i can turn to and rely on. I have yet to have a conncetion like this one. It feels natural how the conversation flows, they have told me as i have told them things that we find conncetions in. This feels like i was back in high school, trying to make friends with the other nerds in my school. I try to think if this was planned, what is the reason? We are here to help each other, if even for a short span or an extented amount of time. Im helping someone and in return they are helping me. Is all im acutally looking for is a human connection, someone who will pay me the attention i crave? I feel happy again. Life is a little brighter now that i have a purpose outside of the four walls i stay inside all day. My next thought is to gow long or short will this last? Will they disappear as quickly as they jumping into my eyes or will i be able to call them for years to come when i dream has me up? With recent events and others pushing away will i be to much and break this connection or will it grow stronger with every shared secret. Is life random at all.. Just a thought.