Everytime I feel like crap, God makes ways to remind me of my worth. For the past few weeks, I have been getting messages from people I left behind of the things they miss about me, how it was like when we were still together, how it would have been if I stayed. Bittersweet feeling, yes. I feel happy that I made an impact on their lives at the same time, guilty for leaving them just like that.
A few weeks ago, I woke up to a message about how I made someone feel on a particular day some months ago. It's one of the little things I used to do (that honestly, I can no longer remember) that made her feel delighted. I had no idea that the motherly love, which comes normally from me meant a lot to her. I went to check her Instagram account for the first time. She has written so many nice things about me then that I was only able to read now. It made me cry.
It was not the easiest decision to leave and up to now I still ask myself whether it was the wisest thing to do. But, she answered my question. Or perhaps, God used her to let me know. I was only an instrument for them to teach them how to appreciate life and to make them realize not all bosses are horrible (hahaha). It was my task as their leader to not invest on their skills but to touch their hearts so they can dig deeper and find what more they can do. At this time last year, the team was in sooo much struggle with work load but now, they are getting it balanced. It must be true then that your legacy should be in people, so they can bring with them everyday even when you're gone the values you taught them.
I was just made aware that they already have a new manager who replaced me. He was someone I only hear about from the office. I can't say much about him since we didn't work together personally but my previous team, the same guys I left behind have been comparing how I deal with them than him with them. They remember how calm I can still keep despite aggravating circumstances at work. How, I can still find goodness behind every unfortunate events. How they feel loved.
Before I completely close that chapter of my life, I will share with you that question I received the day before I got promoted. My boss asked me, "how important is it for you to be liked?" I told him that more than being liked, I want to be respected. The same way I will award them my respect too. People will have to like me because I'm their manager but, it won't guarantee they will respect me. I gave these people my trust and respect, something most bosses nowadays fail to share their people. In return, they gave me the best outcomes from their works. They made our team the cream of the crop. And that's one more additional thing they remember about me. That I led them, to be the best.
"One day, you'll just be a memory to some people. Do your best to be a good one."
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