Happy New Year! It's a big 2020. and I am one of those people who get the NY hype so please bare with me, lol. I am sending you best wishes and hope you enjoyed (or still are enjoying) your holidays.
I know 2020. just started but I can't believe we are already 5 days in! I was so excited for the fresh start and of course, as always when I'm too excited about something, it has to go wrong, lol. After two and a half weeks of on and off ear inflammation, I ended up in the ER the night between 2nd and 3rd of January after 15-16 hours of constant pain and agony just to find out I was previously put on the wrong antibiotics and ear drops. They fixed me in 10-15 minutes and now I'm on the proper therapy. I immediately felt better and all the pain is gone! So that was the start of 2020. for me. xD
Looking back on 2019. there was a lot of great moments but in general, I wish I have achieved more big things. But since there's no going back, I can only take the lessons from the previous year and do better this year. I am happy that I tried and did a lot of new things, nothing crazy but it gave me a boost of confidence and it definitely pushed me out of my comfort zone. As someone who is very introverted and anxious, this is a big deal for me. And some things were just pure fun! :) So I tried bowling for the first time in my life, I went on two longer bike rides by myself after more than 10 years of riding a bike, I played basketball at my local playground, I got braids that I ended up liking a lot and I want to get them again.
And finally, the most unexpected thing happened just few days before the New Year. I went to my local library to get some books and I found out there will be a free, one month long guitar course. At first I was like 'no way' but since I had few days to apply for it and I couldn't get it out of my head, I signed up and I'm so glad I did it because it's so much fun and something I kind of dreamed of but it was 'impossible' in my head. I was so nervous at the beginning of the first class (I am the oldest there) but soon I really began to enjoy learning and appreciate the experience. Tomorrow I am going to the library to practice and I am so looking forward to our next class! And oh, at the end we should have a performance and I'll have to figure out how to deal with my (big) fear of public performances but let's deal with that when the time comes. :D
In 2019. I also went to Exit festival in my city Novi Sad, went to some great and not so great parties, celebrated my birthday with closest friends, went to the cinema a few times, I really wanted to go by myself for the first time but there was nothing I really wanted to see so that's something to do this year. I am also pretty dissapointed with the number of books I've read in 2019. - only 7! :( I am currently reading The Schopenhauer cure and got 5 more books from the library - reading is something I really enjoy spending my time on and I'm still not sure how I got through the entire year reading only 7 books. Maybe I haven't added them all on my Goodreads profile or am I just trying to justify myself making up excuses.... I don't know... :)
One more thing that happened at the beginning of December was that my almost 11 years old laptop died all of a sudden and of course, me being an idiot, I didn't back it up so all of the videos, photos, everything is forever gone. I may or may not have shared a tear or two, lol. I was so mad at myself, mostly because of the photos and videos of my nieces and nephews and my travels as well. It felt like an entire decade of my life was erased and it's like it didn't even happen because I don't have a visual "proof" of it. I don't really have any printed photos from this period of time, the only thing I have is what I published on Social media and what I posted here on Steemit. But I got over it, it is what it is. I got a new laptop and this is actually my first post I'm writing on it, yay!
To end this post, I want to share some of my intentions for 2020... I want to plan less and do more. I am a big planner, to do lists maker, writing down everything type but that's usually where I stop, haha. So I really need to "just do it". :D I also want to continue trying new things, different activities, some with friends, some by myself. I want to focus more on my health and do all the big medical check ups. I want to continue learning languages on Duolingo, I started this few months ago but lately I haven't been active that much. I also want to be more creative and do more creative stuff, even if it's not that great, at the end of the day nobody has to see it and the point is to get that creative energy/flow going and to reduce my anxiety. There's more on my list but let's leave it here for now. As for my goals, I only have two goals for this year and I'll keep them to myself until I achieve them. :)
If you ended up reading this entire post, I want to say a big THANK YOU and have a blessed year. Much love! Nikolina
