I love to get things done usually at night. Things like writing a blog, drawing, filming some products for affiliate, editing videos, doing other hobbies and even doomscrolling on my social medias.
I am one of the people who loves midnights. There's something in midnight that wakes me up, like why do i feel more active at night than during the day? The calmness and the peaceful vibe it brings, it feels refreshing. Ideas would also begin to wander in my thoughts. I get this feeling like I want to do better when tomorrow comes. I want to change my unproductive routines and be better. Thinking about working on it, and pursuing it. I even wrote to-do list in my notes as a reminder for myself. Sometimes everything feels just light and easy, like I can do anything.
That's how I thought during the night and that was strangely positive. But when tomorrow comes, reality also hits. I am just living a typical routine that goes the same over and over. Why is it harder to accomplish what I wrote in my to-do list and sometimes I can't help but procrastinate instead. This is just how it goes. There are other responsibilities to do and there are more distractions during the day, that's why.
But then I still give it a try, I still take the small steps that I am able to do. That's the good thing knowing that even a small step is still part of the progress.
And when the night comes again and everything is calm and peaceful, I get to do things again conveniently.
I decided to minimize my priorities and list some of the most convenient plans that aligns to my situation right now.
I begged myself to stop being preoccupied when it comes to the small business that I was recently planning to pursue. At this time, I am sad to tell that I can't pursue the small business plan anymore because it is not convenient for me, not only that we have minimal space at home but also because I gotta spend more money for the rest materials needed to finish the product I'm planning to sell. It is costly. I actually purchased the other basic materials when I'm still working at my recent job but there are still a lot to buy to make it a good quality product to sell, including the packaging. One more thing about quitting the small business plan is that I need more practice and that practice requires to spend more money for the materials.
I just thought about it and I can't spend my savings on uncertain things now because I've already quit my job as a housekeeper due to my health issues. Maybe I can resume someday when it is finally convenient for me.
Right now, I am planning to invest my savings for a laptop. I want a work from home job.
For now, all I have is an android phone and some motivations to get a remote job. So that's why for now, I'm into blogging and a I'm a tiktok affiliate beginner. I posted art commission service on tiktok to find clients. I also started watching videos about creating résumé and portfolio that I can use for job hunting (work-from-home jobs).
That's the kind of job I am looking forward to.
I'm not yet sure what I can do, I still doubt if I'm gonna get hired by any companies or employers but one thing I'll keep in mind is that, I won't give up on this. I need this. As a person who often feel uncomfy outside, I'm relying on my comfort and safe zone right now and I hope to find a remote job that I would love to do at home, and that will support me enough for my financial needs.
Lately, I stayed up all night till early morning to get my plans done and that midnight was a productive night, and that felt so refreshing! Working on my desk, having a cup of coffee and staying awake while the others are sleeping. I like the vibe of midnights.
Just about 2 weeks ago, I withdrew my staked Hive-backed dollars (HBD) and planned to power-up the total amount but upon withdrawing I just got informed that withdrawing takes 3 days of waiting, that's why I waited for 3 days before I staked my HBD into HIVE.
I uploaded my commissioned artworks on tiktok to find customers who might be interested to commission. I also uploaded some of the painting process to get people's trust and make people believe that my work is not AI-generated because I put efforts to make it.
I deleted the unnecessary files and large files on my Gmail because I have heard that if you apply for an online job, make sure that your Gmail account is clean and professional. The most important for me that night was to learn and get ideas about work from home jobs and how to create résumé and portfolio and where can I look for online jobs, and what type of jobs should I get, and what matches my skills, those sort of questions. But graphic design was the first one that caught my attention because it doesn't require video calls or talking a lot, so I downloaded a lot of resources and videos about graphic design course.
I also downloaded some movies to watch offline when my internet promo expires because watching movie and drama is one of my diversion when I'm not okay.
That's all.
written: september 6, 2025