The good news is that I can move again okay if I do take some anti-pain medications at least it gives me a mobility solution if I am having a problem walking due to these disruptions in how I am moving my body through walking.
My problem now is that I cannot move normally without the influence of pain medications. It makes me worried and sad as well as frustrated. So now I am just braving it all and seeing into how far where I can go with my life..
I just wanted to die all because of my hardships that doesn't end. That thought just goes into my mind when I feel that my body doesn't change for the better but gets worse every passing day judging with the fact that I just can't normally move without analgesics in my blood.
I am terrified to get out from my bed and even rolling into my side is stressful enough because my ribs hurt. My tailbone also is hurting as well as my feet so walking is a great big problem.
What a great way to celebrate my birthday! A 40 year old disabled individual that lives with his parents that cannot do anything with what little money he have but only buy medicines with it. It doesn't sound good at all except the love and care that I receive from steemit community, some only says that they support me but only with words, but a few with selfless love which I cherish with my heart but both a accept. It doesn't mean that my pains goes away, it still lingers and I am tired.