Was a bit slow in the beginning, yet people did indeed come around! There are more personal stories to it, I'll just give the gist of it if I can instead. The personal stuff does set the stage in a social dynamic way. A couple of friends I've known came down. That was great! I set up the drums myself before they got there. Took me a little while. Didn't matter I was determined to get them going for a good time. I cleared the stage. To prep the aesthetic of open space to welcome the electro drum set!
So yea the personal stuff could be me just coming to terms with being traumed in life. I am able to relate that in ways to pals sometimes. I think music, coming out in public is healthy. Too much isolation isn't good for anxiety for me and inflammation. I am even more social with people that are kind to me. People that notice me. I like to at least let people know a little something about me so I'm not so much a mystery to an admired stranger. People like me around. So it pushes me further to be creative and build up my crafty ways to have fun.
Also yea, noticing I've been traumatized, I'm coming to grips somewhat here. Some of the Industrial music has helped me recover that freaky childhood experience, dealing with paranoid society. Coming to terms dealing with a seemingly mental world. Almost like you want to be your pop cultures psychiatrist that has to bring peace not by medication or being a con-troller but through the trauma of the present age in a critical understanding way. Helping me get back to childhood experiences to be political as an older person. People should listen to the New Ministry videos! Wargasm is a good song! I say discredit the military mentality, that song does a pretty good job! Another perfect excuse to make some noise myself! Thank you.
So yea next open jam night should be fun too. They still have open mic Wednesday too. Maybe there will be no one there. Maybe I could show initiative and try to set something up myself. I can do something like that sometime soon. Need to write/practice some material. Also study recording and mixing further for the open mic setting. I can afford to do these projects now I believe. Keep the bursts of creativity open, keep the lines open. I feel keen on being more active. It's been worth the wait and the trip as I see it. Glad to be here.
