I was physically disciplined by multiple family members but most aggressively by my dad who left serious bruises on me all the time. I knew from the beginning that it was not love and I also knew from an early age that there was something wrong with them. Even though I knew the difference between love and abuse, I still grew up to be pretty violent. I got into a lot of fights in school and I used threats and violence well into my 20's to satisfy my ego. Luckily none of my upbringing is transferred to my kids now. Maybe because I was able to clearly identify love from abuse since I could remember.