This picture so accurately represents the internal conflict I face with myself daily. One by one each child joins me in the night for warmth, comfort or both... The "mama of littles" is so needed, they want to be with me every moment. By day I'm Bombarded by their big emotions and boundless energy, endless talking, yelling, fighting, laughing, crying, singing. By night I'm squashed between their quiet little bodies, sweating as I doze in and out of my crooked & restless sleep. Our home is a constant merry-go-round of highs and lows. How sweet they are 💕how exhausted I am 😩.How wonderful that I can give them this safe space in the night. But oh how tired I am, awakened several times a night... nightmares, someone has peeped the bed, someone is thirsty & needs water.. mama needs some sleep!! I see this lovely snuggling picture and I know I won't sacrifice their need for security for my need to sleep uninterrupted. I will get a chance to catch up.. I don't know how long until they no longer need me for comfort, but I know that day WILL come. There will be a day when they no longer want to sleep with their parents, sit in my lap, or ask me to draw on their backs. these mommy struggles are finite, just as everything in this life is. So today I will drink a coffee, splash some cold water on my face, #letthembelittle and see the beauty in the everyday struggles. The struggle for adequate sleep is real, but at least when I do sleep my bed is tremendously full of love 😍. I will look back at this picture one day and only remember the sweetness that they are, and give gratitude to my "mama of littles" self for make space for them.
