When I started off as an artist, i experimented with a lot of styles, hitting a lot of disappointment in my drawings and paintings due to them not reaching my mind's eye expectations, bit I gradually began to learn that art was about satisfaction from the finished art work that looked perfect and beautiful! But from the ugly works that you endured and completed, art is about the process not the finished work in totality, when you begin to love the process, you could work on just an eye drawing for a whole day, without even completing that very day! And still find fulfillment, art is about loving the process and watching yourself become a better artist from each stroke of the brush! You can be a better you, if you persist on that endeavor! Much love from me to you. Keep believing!