Well tomorrow is supposed to be the start of a new treatment here in canada for people with treatment resistant depression. There are a lot of unknowns as they haven’t done the treatment yet so everyone including myself is a little anxious but are hopeing for a good outcome.
The treatment is Ketamine injections. The first week I get 2 injections, then I believe for the next couple weeks I get 1 injection a week, and then it goes to 1 injection for a month, but not sure how long that continues for.
I am really hoping that his treatment works because it is pretty much the only thing left they have to offer and I am at the end of my rope. I just don’t have the strength to fight the depression as it has become worse, as well as the anxiety.
I have been getting a lot of panic attacks and high anxiety since the beginning of the month.
The depression has come to a point that I was making plans to make an attempt in either June or July which is why they got me in so quickly to start this treatment.
It’s not very often that I say things are bad, even when they are. The doctors know that I feel like this will be my last summer and that I was planning to commit suicide in june or july.
So I am praying hard that this treatment will work, and the people from my church small group are also praying for me.
I have to stay in the hospital as an inpatient for a week or two to begin this treatment so that they can closely monitor me and make sure nothing goes wrong. Right now I am on a weekend pass, and I have passes to leave the psych ward for 4 hours at a time whenever I want during the week.
If you are a believer, I could really use everyone’s prayers that this treatment is successful.