As what I have been posted in my previous article that my son does not treat me as her own mother. He treated his grandmother as his real mom.
Yeah, I am a mother who begs for a love of her own son. It's okay to down your pride for the sake of your loved ones. Every night I asked God to just my son treats me like his owned mother but I am disappointed because up to now he is the same, the fact is he is now a distance away from me. Even if he was a child he doesn't like to sleep with me. Though he visited me in my house and I visited him as well. But I guess this is my life. The life which is a way for his son. Yeah, my family thinks that I am okay, that I am not longing for my son. But deep inside my heart bleeds.
I want to live with my son. He is my eldest son. I want to take care of him. I want to spend time because I have no time before as I am still going to school. But when my son grew-up and did his own decision, sad because he decided to not to live with me instead he wants to live with my sister. Yes, he is now with my sister. And even text, chat or call he just replied me once or sometimes just seen my messages.
These are the things bothered me.
Is he still loves me?
Is he still wants to live with his own mother?
Is he treated me as his biological mother?
I envy to my sister and my mother because he treated them like his own mom, while me? remained nothing to him. (Sigh)