I feel exhausted, restless and disappointed. I have not been myself lately and it sucks. It sucks that I was defeated by negativity.
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For the past two months, I have dedicated myself to improving people's communication skills as part of my job. Hell, I would say that it's not just their communication skills that have improved but their lives as well. I had a lot of trainees who got hired after I trained them. But it seems like while I was improving them, I have been depriving myself of the things that could help me improve as a person.
If you are an employee, this should not be the case. Your job is supposed to make you better and not less of a person. So if you are being drained and no new skills or talents have been renewed, then maybe it's time to think about getting a new job.
I love my job. Don't get me wrong, I'm not being sarcastic. But it has been making me weak and negative for the past two months. I always do my best to help people land a job but in the end, it's me who gets disappointed. Why? Because I don't feel like I'm developing something.
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It's not the end of the tunnel yet.
I feel opressed. Not because I am just an employee but because I don't have any choice but to stick with what I am doing. I have bills to pay and mouths to feed. I feel distressed, literally and figuratively. I feel like my youth is being taken away from me. I needed to rest. I needed to re-think my game plan. So I stopped blogging....
Until I realized that blogging is the job that I really want. When I write, I don't feel like I'm working. I feel relieved. I feel energized. I had to accept the fact that life is not fair. That sometimes, I had to deal with the things that I cannot really control. My job pays the bill so I must continue.
In the future, I see myself as a full time writer. I hope here on Steemit but if not, I'm glad I renewed my passion for writing in this platform. I promise to contribute good and quality content here and will stay as a loyal Steemian.
So if you're tired, rest. That doesn't mean you should stop. But always remember to do what makes you happy. Keep on steeming! 😊