Another NICU journey, BUT this too SHALL PASS

February 12, 2018, I haven’t felt active movement in my tummy for the past 3 days so the doctor sent me for fetal well being scan. Sonologist mentioned the baby is moving yet at a very minimal tone, this made my doctor put me into non stress test monitor. To my surprise they said I am already contracting and labor is starting yet I am not feeling anything at all.

In just 15 minutes, the team was called and I was advised I need to deliver via repeat C-section, everything happened in an instant. My little one was born February 12, 2018 9:43PM Manila Time at gestational age of 35 weeks and 3 days, cord coil and very minimal amniotic fluid, my uterus was so thin which means it really is the time to welcome him to the world, he is a preemie and he is perfect, I get to give him his first kiss, the doctor handed him to his dad and everything is so well.

He was observed for 8 hours and at 6:00 AM the next morning, my husband was called to the NICU and he had to sign a waiver that he is allowing the team to put our little one in a CPAP machine due to breathing difficulties. A total devastation was felt, dejavu. As if everything is flashing back and we felt being crushed in questions and fear and doubt. Doctors started to insert IV to him so antibiotics can run straight to his blood stream.

Thank God the following day he was weaned off from incubator and CPAP, he was stable so those are all good sign. As of now he can manage his own body temperature and is feeding like a champ. There’s a bit of struggle with my breastmilk supply but i’m working on it to make sure my son will gain all the strength and nutrients he need to be well ASAP.

We want to be with him at home so so bad, but our only choice as of now is to patiently wait until he is able to breathe completely on his own. Right now he’s on a low flow oxygen support and needs to be on it until he makes it. Fingers crossed we’ll get to bring home our little one soon. A healthy baby boy, the reward of our tears.

We never cease to pray and we will never cease to pray. I won’t forget God’s message. That I have a good report, that my story is already written, that GOODNESS and MERCY will follow me, so I should move forward in FAITH and with a brave heart. God loves me and he loves my little one.

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