Persistency flaw - my life problem

If be any chance you actually read my blog you will know that I used to do #redjanuary. All went great until I left to Copenhagen last Friday. I had absolutely no time to do any type of exercise apart sightseeing, which in my head does not count.

I also can admit that I was afraid that it will happen. Somehow my energy went low and I lost the drive even if I would find 5 minutes to shake my body. I do believe that all great minds were lazy so this is usually my favourite excuse. I am not even as bad as I am walking back and forth to my work every day (around 6 km in total) and I always believe that they count for a healthy lifestyle.

This time I felt bad letting down other people. The tag was started by Hive account@redrica and she has been very supportive with me every day on the #redjanuary post. I am used to disappoint myself, I know that are habits in my life that are very hard to break. My biggest fear is not that I am going to become a failure, mine is that I am powerful beyond reason ("Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure" Marianne Williamson)

So I did fail to keep up with redjanuary challenge, I am a coward indeed and I know it :) I was looking at the light of a candle in Copenhagen and thinking about commitment. I do not handle well commitment, I used to think I am born without this gene. I am more like the wind or like a candle, forever undecided :) but soft and caressing. I might lack persistency, but I do love flow and anyone who ever had a magic moment in dance would know that is a weird combination of persistency and divine inspiration. Maybe fitness is not my cup of tea in the end 💖💖

Hugs,
Teodora