Evaluating and judging.
Personally, I am trying to live my life without judging anyone; especially myself. However, that is sometimes a very hard thing to do.
You know that feeling when you wake up in the morning and remember all the things you could have done better yesterday? It feels like...
...And that is how all the bad emotions are born. That is how insecurities and low self-esteem find a way into our minds.
For instance, I know that yesterday I could have spent more time writing and less time faffing around. I did not. That only throws me a few steps away from a theoretical and perfect version of myself. How can it not be depressing to see myself being a lazy-ass?
Makes sense?
Well, it should not.
Logically everything I wrote above is fine, but in reality, the thought of “Perfect me” is one of the worst thoughts that one can have. It pollutes our fragile ecosystem.
I am learning to accept the fact that there is always a better me in a parallel universe. There is always an alternative me, who has it all figured out and does not need to feel the struggle anymore. So what?
As long as I try my best in this world, I will be happy with whatever result I can get. If it means being a failure – let it be. If it means succeeding - good for me.
However, every morning when I think that I could have done more the previous day, I try my best to do that much more this day. I don't just say "Oh well, I am not so perfect and I cannot be." Yup, it is just another extreme put on the other side of the table. It will not bring any good. So where does it leave us?
We must try our best to be perfect and be happy that we are not. Strange, huh?
We cannot know how valuable our work will become, but we can make sure to put as much effort as we possibly can. Sometimes those efforts will be crushed by our laziness and tiresome. Sometimes those efforts will not be enough to buy yourself a treat. It is totally fine. The only thing I know is:
In the long run, we get rewarded for fighting till the end.
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