I thought about my little dreams today. I told my friend how cool it would be to come true. I thought a little more. I realized that I was not even ready for those dreams to come true.
Seriously, how many of you would be glad if your dreams come true tomorrow? I bet that you would all just go crazy and start denying the presence of the reality. You would not be able to control it... or maybe it's just me who is lame.
I came to a conclusion that humans' mentality is to expect "normal" all the time. We don't think we can ever become legends (we dream about it, but we don't truly believe it) and we also don't think that we could die tomorrow in a car crash.
Any kind of digression from the mean makes us terrified... so we just deny the possibility of that happening.
And I was sitting, thinking "Is it possible for me not to work for anybody from such a young age? That would be an amazing life." And I realized that I am heading toward this goal. "That doesn't make any sense," I kept thinking, "It is what happens to other people, but not me."
I understand that those thoughts are not healthy at all, but I just cannot control what comes to my mind. I can control what I believe or do... but not what I think. That said, I enjoy catching myself thinking about all the different ideas. Sometimes I am happy with my thought process; sometimes I am not.
And while I was thinking about how improbable are radical things, I realized that many of radicals things already happened in my life. I realized that what was once a dream became a reality already.
And yet, I got scared of an idea of any of my dreams become a reality tomorrow. Maybe some dreams are actually better of being just dreams? And this makes me wonder if people even know what they want from the life... or they just think they do, because they don't ever expect anything to happen?