For those of you who haven't read my intro post I posted couple of different songs that resonate with me one of them being the song I was named after which is "Brandy by the Looking Glass" It's a one hit wonder but very popular in its day.
My mom told me she used to sit in front of the record player with her headset on listening to music. Maybe that's why I have a love for music. It's always been a big part of my life. In high school I played the tenor sax in the band. There is not a day that goes by that I'm not listening to music. It helps energize me and get my head in the right place. Some days getting my head in the right place is a struggle but music has saved my soul.
I realized 4 years into my first marriage that my husband never really loved me. He only loved the fact that I worked hard and always made sure that we had a roof over our head and food on the table. His money was to do whatever he wanted with which was drugs and alcohol. It left us in massive debt. This is when I decided that it was time for new rules and it meant starting over because I had tried starting over with him and it was never going to happen.
Glorious Is a song that has recently resonated with me. I feel like after my divorce from my first husband I really had the chance to start again. It was a rough 4 years and pretty much lost everything I was and everything I had but you know everything happens for a reason and that's why I have my beautiful daughter who is my "mini me".
I can thank him for everything that I went through because it made me a much stronger person. Just like the song says "I'm proud of who I am, no monsters in my head and I can make it on my own. I've found a strength I've never known"
I found the strength to get up and try again. Just because there was a flame doesn't mean that I died. I had to get up and try again. I wanted a relationship where I didn't feel like I was just getting by and day by day just living a lie. That's when I got up and tried again.
Everything I do in life even if I feel like I've been a complete failure I've got up and tried again. You can't let anything that has ever "Happened" to you in your life define who you are.
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